2003-04-13 - 4:31 p.m.

I was doing some much needed spring cleaning on my computer and bumped into an old journal entry from New Year's Day, this year. I'm thankful today for having had the prescience to write down my resolution. It was a refreshing experience, re-reading it. I can see that, although I've come a long way, I've hit a slow spot in my personal progress. By reviewing the resolution, I've also recommitted myself to the essential goal therein. Yay! "I am going to make the most of my life while in Sacramento. Granted, there are a lot of similarities between Woodland and Sacramento, but Sacramento has more people and therefore a higher probability of people who aren�t so goddamn American. I�m going to join a group or two � at least a mycological society. I think that people that are interested in mushrooms have to be at least somewhat interesting themselves. Ok, Daniel, remember that your feelings are just that � they�re all in your head and you control them. That doesn�t mean that if I�m feeling lonely or depressed that I should ignore my feelings, but rather use them as a gauge of my well-being. It�s ok to be down and/or lonely every now and then, but if those are my primary emotions, then it�s an indicator that something is wrong and if something is wrong, I need to change it. I only have this one life to make right, so I can�t afford to ignore my feelings at the cost of my well-being. And that�s all that smoking pot and drinking do � help me to ignore things that I don�t feel are right with myself." I went out for a 2.5 hour bike ride earlier. I was going to ride my bike down to the river and then go for a run, but in the end I decided that it was just too much fun riding my bike around. Doesn't matter - I got some exercise. :) I talked to Sam and Sirpa on the phone today. They sound happy now that they've kinda settled down in Helsingborg. Hopefully I'll be able to go over there this summer for a couple of weeks. It'd be fun to see Haddi again and perhaps go up to Norway to visit Nathalie. I'm planning on losing another couple of pants sizes and toning up before then, so I'll be looking and feeling my best. Good times!!!